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Holidays are Weird

Holidays are weird. I don’t have my kids with me at every holiday anymore.  They are now split between time with me and time with Bubba.  I get one Christmas, Bubba gets the next.  He gets one Thanksgiving, I get the next. The kids and I have adapted.  We celebrate Christmas on Christmas Day during …

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Back Child Support

I logged into my bank the other day to check on things.  I used to just look at it twice a month since I pretty much know what I have in there.  I’m buying gifts for Christmas with cash I’d saved over the past few months but need to buy a few things online.  I …

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Hiatus

Hope Wears Heels will be going on hiatus. I’m not sure how long this will last but I need some time off.  I will post on my Facebook page when I begin writing again. Thank you.

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Merry Christmas

Merry Christmas! I’m taking the day off from my regular posting to talk about something very important.  I debated interrupting the flow of the story for this but I think it is important to put this out there. Abusers tend to escalate during the holidays.  I’ve actually never done any research on this phenomenon and …

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Saturday Bonus Post – Guest Post by Jubilee

After writing about the depravity that was my last marriage, I thought maybe I would tell a lighter story. It does not have a happy ending because it has not ended. And honestly, I would not have it any other way. Peter is the man you don’t know you want to date until you get …

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Saturday Bonus Post – Guest Post by Aine

Today’s Guest Post is by Aine.  She talks about the abuse she suffered in her FOO.  It is  a long post and I considered breaking it up into two posts, but decided that it needs to be read in its entirety.   I just spent 2 hours in my garden removing thistles.  As I was …

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My Body Image Issues

I’ve had body image issues my entire life.  I am 41 years old and for the first time in my life, I’m happy with my body.  It has taken a lot of work to deal with the root causes of hating my body but it has been worth every tear that has been shed to …

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My Body Wakes Up

A week after Emancipation Day, I wrote this: I’m going out of my mind. I want to rip my skin off and throw it away. I hate blueberry vodka. It is evil. Friday night when I was drinking it, I said that it felt like my skin was shimmering. Yeah, that would’ve been every single …

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Is This Healthy?

Once I locked Luke away in his own little compartment, I started thinking about whether it was healthy or not: I’m a bit worried that I’m still too good at shutting things down though.  I’ll have to talk to Liz about it tomorrow.  Is this a good thing or a bad thing?  It’s such a …

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In Which I Revisit Adolescence

With the contact with Luke ban still firmly in place, I had entirely too much time to think about him.  Sure, I was busy being a mom and a student, but I had plenty of time to lay in bed at night and wonder about Luke.  It came out in my journal entries: Here I …

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