Category Archives: Saturday Bonus Posts

Saturday Bonus Post – Guest Post by Beth

I’m Beth.  I grew up in an abusive home.  I never realized just how abusive and dysfunctional until well into adulthood.  In my home, we never spoke of the abuse, and we certainly never called it abuse.  It was just the way things were. My mother was a victim of childhood abuse.  My father was …

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Sleep

Right after Serenity was born, I became a very light sleeper.  Any disturbance in The Force was enough to wake me, have me checking on her and the house then trying to go back to sleep.  I often found that nearly impossible to do.  It is almost like my brain was on high-alert and it …

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Hope’s Playlists

I was out running errands the other day and started making a mental list of songs that I wanted to add to my YouTube playlists.  (Since I was driving, I completely forget them all by the time I got home.  <headdesk>) Throughout this journey, I’ve used music to bolster my strength, soothe my soul, and …

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Triple A

Acknowledge, Accept, Await Endellion and I were chatting on Skype when I was home for lunch this week.  She told me that she felt numb again.  After the emotional shitstorm of the weekend, I told her that it seemed logical that her brain would shut down to process everything – kind of like a computer …

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Waiting For The Sun

Endellion and I got drunk last night.   Although we are physically separated by quite a few states, we often chat and video chat on Skype.  We like to drink together because usually, we giggle our asses off and have a blast. Last night we cried harder than we normally laugh, at least Endellion did. …

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Spiritual Abuse

Serenity gifted me with tickets to see a Christmas musical at a local church.  The thought of stepping into a church was enough to make me feel sick to my stomach but she was so excited about having gotten me tickets, that I decided to just suck it up and go.  I asked Arcadia and …

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My Views on My Body – Then and Now

I’m going to start at the top of my body and work my way down.  I’m going to pick one body part and say what I used to think about it then and what I think about it now.  This is going to be hard because it will require absolute honesty from me.  I think …

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He Makes Me Laugh

When I first left Bubba and I put down the boundary that I would only communicate with him via email and only about the children, I lived in dread of him emailing me. I asked Maria to read my emails before I read them so that she could pass on pertinent information without me needing …

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