Category Archives: Power and Control Wheel

The Duggars – My Thoughts

I’ve debated long and hard whether I wanted to touch this story.  For me, it’s brought up a ton of old feelings.  Seeing the comments and opinions swirling all over the internet has sometimes had me cheering and sometimes had me wanting to bang my head into a wall. The first thought is about those …

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Where Are My Children?

I talked to Liam the other day.  He wants me to give him permission to purchase something that I’m not entirely comfortable allowing him to purchase.  I told him I needed to think about it and we could talk the next day.  He told me that he wouldn’t be able to because he’d be in …

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My Faith….or Lack Thereof

I’m angry at God right now.  In fact, I’m not on speaking terms with Him at all.  I don’t trust Him and in fact, think He’s actively working against me.  It just seems that every time I think I’m getting something good, it gets yanked away from me. Endellion said this is an ethical problem.  …

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Feeling Resentful

I’ve had the children without a break for nine weeks now.  Nine weeks!  Seriously.  It is driving me around the bend.  I’m an Introvert.  I need time to be alone.  Specifically, I need time to be alone in my house.  I need to have time to not be responsible for everything and everyone and I’m …

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Shane’s Hell Breaks Loose

I got a call at 2:25 on Monday from the school.  As soon as I saw the school’s name pop up on my phone I knew it wasn’t anything good they were calling about.  It was the principal.  Shane was in the principal’s office and had lost complete control.  He was raging and destroying the …

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No Counseling!

I read something from a woman who is questioning whether or not she is being emotionally abused by her husband.  The evidence is as clear as the nose on her face that she is but she can’t see it yet.  The abused woman canNOT see that she is abused until she is ready.  This woman …

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The Hospital Incident

I remembered something the other day.  I had to have surgery quite a few years ago.  Shane was just a year old and still nursing frequently.  I knew that the surgery would require me to stay overnight at the hospital.  The doctor would not budge about that no matter how much I protested that I …

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Step-Parents

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about the children some day having step-parents.  I’m finding that I don’t like that term.  I don’t know why, it just doesn’t sit well with me. I know that, no matter who I eventually marry (if that ever happens), he will take on the male role model role in …

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Being a Better Mom

Being with a person who repsects and loves you will make you a better mom because it makes you a better person all around.  Endellion saying she isn’t a good mom brought this one. Endellion keeps telling me that she isn’t a good mother.  She became a mother because she thought that was what she …

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Jewelry

I was driving home for lunch today and I started thinking about all the jewelry I own.  I have some truly beautiful pieces.  I have rings, necklaces, and earrings that haven’t seen the light of day in years.  Before the divorce all I wore was a small pair of gold earrings and my wedding band.  …

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