Category Archives: Healing

The Wedding!

The day had finally arrived.  Treun and I were getting married!  Our wedding day dawned warm and clear.  It was sunny and beautiful and I was up at an ungodly hour because I was too excited to sleep.  The plan was to arrive at Treun’s house around 9 am so that we could all get …

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Holidays are Weird

Holidays are weird. I don’t have my kids with me at every holiday anymore.  They are now split between time with me and time with Bubba.  I get one Christmas, Bubba gets the next.  He gets one Thanksgiving, I get the next. The kids and I have adapted.  We celebrate Christmas on Christmas Day during …

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He’s Home!

I’m pretty sure that was the longest ten days of my life. He got home last night around 8:45 p.m.  My plan was to leave work, spend some time with the kids, get Shane to bed, then head over to his house for a bubble bath before he got home.  Shockingly, my plan worked beautifully!  …

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I Miss Treun

He went to visit his folks.  He’s been gone for three whole days!  I’m lost without him.  I truly am. Treun left and took all of his calm with him.  I feel jittery and rudderless.  I feel quite lost without his quiet presence.  And I have to make it through six more days.  He won’t …

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Triggered!

Treun and I are ridiculously happy these days.  Things are cruising along at a good clip and I will, hopefully, be able to write more soon.  I’m finding that the happier I am, the less time and energy I have to write.  I also think I’m so far into my healing journey that I have …

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One Year Ago

I was reading old posts and came to The Party and the Great Big Realization.  Wow!  I’m simply shocked by the difference a year has made.  It’s been a year since Sean was in my life and we were doing the dance around each other. A year ago I struggled with needing him in my …

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Making Plans

Treun and I started talking.  I can’t remember how the conversation started but we ended up talking about the pros/cons of getting married vs. living together.  I’d asked him to run to the local used bookstore with me because I needed to find one more Christmas present for Serenity.  We looked around, I bought what …

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One of Those Moments

Did you ever have a moment where you are just completely over come with awe; you feel the whole of your soul well up with every good thing that is in your life and it just leaks out of your eyes? I had one of those moments last night.  Treun and I were snuggling in …

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The Swing of My Hips

They are remodeling our restrooms at work.  They are located right across the hall from my office and now I have to go upstairs to use the restroom.  There is a door that leads to the stairwell and it has a large window in it.  Today, as I was walking toward the door to go …

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My Life Changes

As Peace and I were talking, my phone announced a text.  What could Treun want to tell me now, of all times, after I told him I needed a few days to process him not having deep feelings for me?  Peace had a point – maybe I should open the text and read it before …

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