Category Archives: My Teenhood

Too Many Emotions

Today would’ve been our anniversary.  Over two decades we’d have been married had he not chosen to remain an abusive asshole.  Today, I’m angry.  Today, I’m mourning.  Today, I feel a little sick. I think I’ve been so busy for so long just being happy to be free of the nightmare that was being married …

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My Teen Years

In Celia’s letter, she brought up how I was as a teenager.  She admitted to giving me the silent treatment and guilt trips during “those” years, implying that it was my fault because we all know how horrible I was back then.  She also said if these are abusive things, then she thinks she was …

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History

Exploring the “what ifs” of life is something that has been my major obsession for a long time now. I don’t remember if I’ve ever told the story of how I met Luke.  If I did, forgive me.  I’m going to tell it again if I’ve already done it.  If I haven’t, well, here it …

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Processing Headaches

I sometimes get headaches when I process things; the same kind I used to get all the time while Bubba and I were still together.  I’m also dreaming again although mostly, I don’t remember them.  I know I’m dreaming though because I’ll wake up with a vague, uneasy feelings and my covers are all over …

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