Monthly Archives: September, 2013

Lazy! Lazy! Lazy!

That is the refrain that is playing in my head. It is noon on Sunday and here is what I’ve gotten done today: Dyed my hair Baked two loaves of bread Have two more loaves rising Two pie crusts made and in fridge Clean dishes put away Dirty dishes washed Mixed up laundry detergent Two …

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Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday to me!  Happy Birthday to me!  Happy Birthday, Dear Hope!  Happy Birthday to me! Truly, this has been the best birthday I’ve ever had.  I don’t remember another birthday where I’ve felt so loved and cared for.  I don’t remember a birthday where I didn’t dread the gift because I knew it would …

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Every Day

Treun and I have been together every day for the past few weeks.  I can’t imagine a day going by that I don’t see him.  We had one night this past week where we weren’t planning to see each other and I ended up inviting him over at the last minute.  He was at my …

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Where Are My Children?

I talked to Liam the other day.  He wants me to give him permission to purchase something that I’m not entirely comfortable allowing him to purchase.  I told him I needed to think about it and we could talk the next day.  He told me that he wouldn’t be able to because he’d be in …

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Feels Like Last Year

I’m alone in the house.  It’s beautiful outside.  I have all the windows open and I’m enjoying the warmth of summer.  I’m baking.  I’m cooking.  I have the music blasting.  I am happy. Serenity had a function to attend this morning and had to be out the door by 7:30 am.  I woke up, got …

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I’m Labeled

Treun and I were sitting on the couch, talking, the other night.  I don’t remember the context of the conversation but he said something about “spending time with my girlfriend.”  I pulled back and looked at him quizzically for a moment, then I burst into the biggest grin I think I’ve ever had on my …

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Overwhelmed

The other night Shane’s therapist came over to have a phone session with Shane.  The call was supposed to last 30 minutes then she was supposed to have 30 minutes with me.  Treun and I had a date so I told him when I’d be done with the therapist and he headed over.  The therapist …

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Sharing Sleep

Treun and I have been spending weekends together.  Usually it is just one night each weekend but this weekend was different.  I slept-over at his house both Friday and Saturday nights. We’re still trying to get used to sharing sleep space.  It’s been so long since either of us has done this that it is …

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Where Did This Come From?

I look back at when I realized that Bubba had been raping me for the majority of our marriage and how I decided that I’d never have sex again.  I spent so many years avoiding sex and hating it that, to now realize it was really rape, threw me so far into a tailspin that …

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Two Anniversaries and New Memories

The other day was the two year anniversary of the last time that Bubba raped me.  Two long years.  Two short years.  Two years of my body being MINE. Treun and I were at lunch when I realized what day it was.  How much has changed in two years?  So very much.  Two years ago …

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