Monthly Archives: August, 2013

Sleep-Over

I was talking to someone at work and he recommended Jim Beam Red Stag.  He said it was really smooth and said that I should give it a try.  I bought some yesterday and mentioned to Treun that I planned on having a drink last night.  He was visiting his son a couple of hours …

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God Speaks

It’s been two days since I finally sat down and wrote that post about being angry with God.  Two full days since I admitted that our relationship was in trouble because of my lack of faith, my trying to puzzle out who God is, my letting FOO shit lead me further away from God. It …

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My Faith….or Lack Thereof

I’m angry at God right now.  In fact, I’m not on speaking terms with Him at all.  I don’t trust Him and in fact, think He’s actively working against me.  It just seems that every time I think I’m getting something good, it gets yanked away from me. Endellion said this is an ethical problem.  …

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Sex

I’m having trouble processing the sexual side of things once again.  Treun and I are heading that way.  How can two mature people who are both looking at each other as potential mates NOT be heading that way?  The closer we get to that possibility the more nervous I’m becoming. In my experience sex ruins …

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Saturday Bonus Post – Guest Post by Jubilee

After writing about the depravity that was my last marriage, I thought maybe I would tell a lighter story. It does not have a happy ending because it has not ended. And honestly, I would not have it any other way. Peter is the man you don’t know you want to date until you get …

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This Must Be What “Normal” Feels Like

Yesterday, Treun invited us over for dinner tonight.  I’d said I had steaks so I’d bring them and we could grill.  I also told him that I’d make baked beans.  The plans were all set.  I’d pick up the children after work, grab the food out of the fridge and head over to Treun’s house. …

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Everything Seems Fine

Treun invited me and the kids over to swim again.  We took Serenity’s friend, Greta, with us and the four kids were playing in the pool while Treun and I snuggled on the bench and watched.  He started the conversation about the Biggest Baddest.  Had I let it, my jaw would’ve dropped onto the ground.  This …

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The Biggest Baddest Revisited

It was a beautiful day.  I’d decided to take the kids to the beach to enjoy the sun and sand.  I’d asked Treun to go and he said it all depended on what time we were going and whether his daughter had left for home yet.  His daughter lives several states away and had come …

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The Storm

I’m in the middle of  a kitchen remodel.  I started the kids stripping wallpaper during the week and they had gotten a great start.  I decided to get to work on Saturday and see how much I could tear through.  I have given myself about a month to get the kitchen finished.  Well, I guess …

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Insomnia Strikes Again!

I toss and turn.  I don’t sleep.  Sleep is elusive tonight.  Sleeps evades me like mist in the morning.  I see it, yet it evaporates when I get near it.  My mind is going in too many directions right now for sleep to be my friend.  My mind is boggled and I’m not sure I …

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