I got home for lunch and Sean’s girlfriend’s car was in their driveway again. I liked it better when he was just gone. After seeing him the other day with his girlfriend over there, I noticed that his truck was back for a little bit that evening. Then today he was outside again. He really has lost weight. I recognized the jeans he was wearing and they aren’t hugging his butt like they used to. I hate that my heart breaks all over again when I see him.
I got back to work and started walking across the parking lot. I work for a large company and always end up parking toward the back of the lot. As I was walking in today, I noticed a man matching steps with me. I looked over at him and we started talking. We talked the entire way across the parking lot. Finally, I said, “My name is Hope.” He introduced himself with just his first name. Duh! Had I said my last name, he might have given his. Instead I told him where I worked and when he veered off to walk in another direction, I got bold enough to ask where he worked. He is in a completely different area of the company.
When I got back into my office, I told two of the ladies and they told me to look him up on the company directory. Since I had a few minutes left of my lunch break, I did just that. I found him! He is so handsome! I wish I could’ve seen his left hand to get an idea of whether he is married or not. I still can’t believe that I talked to an unknown man and enjoyed it! That still just amazes me that I no longer shrink and try to hide myself from men.
While I was home for lunch, I decided to check out the dating website. I found a new man on there and his profile totally blew me away! He knows what Love Languages are!!! Everything he wants in a relationship is what I’ve been looking for. I emailed him a quick hello and said I’d write more after work. Not only is his profile wonderful, he’s rather easy on the eyes. He is definitely swoon-worthy!
I got home from work and emailed him again like I said I would. I really hope he responds. I would love to get to know him.
Getting over Sean is hard but I’m enjoying meeting new people. I am praying that I find my other half, the man I’m meant to be with. I might not be totally on board with marriage yet, but I definitely want a relationship with someone. I want someone to come home to in the evenings. I want someone to love.
I really do hope this man emails back. Right now I’m trying not to obsessively check the site.
It really isn’t working.