WTF? I Don’t Get It!
When Sean and I talked yesterday and I asked him what was going on with us, he said we could still be friends. I asked him twice why he disappeared on me and neither time did I get an acceptable answer. At one point he told me that he can’t take being teased to all hell and back.
This morning that is really bothering me. WTF? I hadn’t been aware that I was teasing him and that he didn’t like it. He never communicated this to me. I was extremely up front and honest about where I stood in all of this. He’s been avoiding me.
He said he was making it easier on me. Again I ask, WTF? Easier on me how? I left so much unsaid because, after reading Celia’s letter, I simply didn’t have the energy to call him on his bullshit. The more he talked, the less he actually said. It was then that I realized that I was definitely getting my closure.
He is not capable of an adult relationship any more than I am at this point. For all of his big talk about communication, he is really very bad at it; instead hiding away and avoiding me. I’m regularly left to wonder where he disappeared to and why. I can’t do this anymore.
I know I’ve said this repeatedly but this time is different. It is easier to break the ties now that we have some distance between us. I just need to maintain the distance.
I don’t understand the man. I never will. I will classify him as a “WTF?” and go on from here. Any interaction in the future will be instigated by him because I’m just done with it. I can’t rely on him for anything and I understand that now. I’m sad that I lost a friend but had this not happened, I would’ve continually been going through this same thing over and over. I would’ve continued giving him one more chance not to disappear on me because that is what friends do. I can clearly see now that we aren’t meant to be anything more than neighbors because friends simply don’t treat each other the way he’s treated me. I will be civil if I see him outside. That is as far as it is going to go. Our friendship is over.
Yes, communication is important. However, it only works if you use it.