Monthly Archives: November, 2012

Introducing Purity

From my journal: Yesterday I had to pick up the kids from their visit with Bubba.  We hadn’t been in the car very long and the kids told me that Bubba told them how much money I have from the settlement.  Fluffy made his presence known!  I was seething that he would tell the kids …

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Moving Time

The day had finally arrived.  The semester was over and I got to move into a brand new home.  It was time to really start my new life. I’d looked and looked for a new place to live during the divorce.  The county we lived in was a lot pricier than the neighboring county and …

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The Semester Ends

Finals were finally over.  I just had to wait for my grades for Anatomy and Physiology (A&P) and Stats.  Since the final in Nutrition was optional, the professor told us that if we already had an “A” we actually weren’t allowed to take the final.  Since she offered bonus points during the semester and I’d …

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The Heart Attack and Family

My father had a heart attack.   Once the doctors did all their testing, they decided he needed to have surgery.  The only way I found out about this is because they told my children.  You see, the decree came down from my father when I first told them I’d be out of touch until …

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Summer Plans

More from my journal: I’m making plans for the summer.  I’ll have two months without the kids.  The parenting plan allows me to go visit them in Bubba’s town two times for two days each.  If I can arrange a place to stay, I might see if Bubba will allow me to visit them once for …

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I’m Angry

*I’m angry that I can’t see Great Aunt and Grandmother because of all the FOO junk. I’m angry at my FOO for being who they are.  I’m angry that if I go visit Great Aunt or Grandmother it would just be turned around that I saw them specifically to hurt my parents.  I’m angry that …

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Watching “Gaslight”

I visited my neighbor today and as I was looking through her movie collection, I saw that she owns Gaslight.  I immediately asked her if I could borrow it as I’ve been wanting to watch it for a long time now.  I’ve wanted to see the movie that coined the term. It was extremely hard …

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I’m Not Going

With summer looming and the unasked questions still unasked, I fought with myself about what to do: On the way to school this morning I made the decision to not go.  My main motivating factor is the fact that I would be entirely too close to the Family of Origin (FOO).  I wouldn’t be able …

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Summer Expectations

The end of my semester and summer were quickly approaching.  I had one more week of school before finals and immediately after finals, the kids and I were moving!  I was still in counseling every week with Liz.  I ended up discussing Luke every week.  He was central in my life and as summer loomed …

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The Lonelies

The Lonelies were my enemy.  For the most part I was able to keep them at bay.  I was so busy being a mom and a student and trying to survive divorcing an abuser that I didn’t have time to feel lonely.  But in the still of the night,  in the dark of my bedroom, …

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